The Weekend and The Big ‘What Next’

Our weekend was fairly uneventful.  On Saturday morning I took the Weasel in for her follow-up appointment at the vets.  She road on my lap in her little sleep sack and much to my surprise she stayed awake for the whole ride.  She lay on her back as comfortable as a passenger on a First Class flight and would look up at me (or at least in my direction) from time to time.  She look so darn cute that I wanted to take a picture to post here but refrained since I was driving. 

The vet was amazed at her remarkable recovery.  He did shine a flash light into her eyes and she didn’t even flinch.  Its been determined that the attack has left her completely blind however, her sight may return.  In one eye her pupil slowly contracted.  There is nothing wrong with her eyes per se but it has more to do with the connection from her brain sending signals to the eyes.  I hope in time this will come back as well.  Over the weekend she seem back to her sweet little self and is making progress in figuring out where things are.  She scratched at the insoles of my sneaker and just did her normal ferrety things.  In some ways she is more energetic than she was before the attack.  I hope this progress continues.

Due to the costs of said vet trips we layed low and spent a lot of time at home.  The weather here is beautiful right now and today may hit 80 degrees.  80 degrees in January.  I’ll take it. 

Its kind of hit me lately that I need to set some goals and then figure out how to accomplish them.  Now if I could just figure out what it is that I want to do!  I really thought I had it all figured out a few years back.  I was in school working towards my Computer Science degree.  I haven’t taken a class in over a year now and decided I would have to wait to re-enroll where my husband had been laid off from his job.  Now I really don’t know if that is a path I still want to go down.  I’ll be 43 this year.  I can’t decide if I should just stay with what I’m doing and collect a paycheck or work towards a career.  And if I do work towards a career what career would that be?  Ladies and gentleman I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up. 

I like what I do right now.  I don’t know if I’ll stay forever but I figured I would give myself another year and then make a decision.  They’re good to me here.  My ideas are respected.  My boss also let me change my title because I thought the former one did not accurately reflect my role within the company. 

In time I’m sure things will come to me.  Sometimes ideas come without warning.  In the 2001 I was laid off from a job.  I knew I needed to do something big after that.  I had already had a vacation planned and was scheduled to leave the day after the lay off.  I still went.  On my way home from vacation it hit me…I was moving to Arizona and I was going to study Massage Therapy.  This was decided in stone while I waited for a connecting flight from Baltimore to Boston.  There was no turning back.  It was that clear.  I accomplished both.  Moving was an adventure that I’ll never forget and although I no longer work in Massage Therapy, it was an experience that can never be taken from me.  I learned so much.  We are incredible machines.

While I don’t expect the big ‘What Next’ to be as life changing as those decisions, I’m keeping an open mind.  Our local community college has a few classes coming up that I’m looking into.  One is a Saturday morning exercise boot camp at our local highschool and the other is about managing finances and planning for retirement.  If I have the time (and funds) I would also like to take a Spanish language class.  I speak some but its been learned by osmosis.  I’m slowly losing the ability to understand it as well and I need to really learn how to speak it correctly.  My husband loses patience with me sometimes.  I tell him it makes perfect sense to me.  What’s his problem?  😉  Anyways, the classes I think will be a step in the right direction in just figuring out the big ‘What Next’.