I have to write to get this off my chest. I have a very good friend who has been quite generous the past couple years when my husband was laid off from his job. While I know I’ll never be able to repay her for her kindness, I feel like I should be giving more back now. At Christmastime she gave me a beautiful new jacket that I had my eye on. I had mentioned to her in the Fall that for Christmas I would like to treat us both to massages. As we came into December my husband announced that he would not be getting paid for the two weeks around the holidays. In an effort to budget things I asked my friend if she would mind if we did the massages after the holidays. She was fine with that.
I scheduled the massages for the latter part of last month. During this month we had several unexpected things come up. Both hubby’s and my vehicles needed repair and then the Weasel got sick. Her vet bills were astronomically high. It hit me a few days before the massages that I couldn’t pay for both. I called the therapist and canceled mine but paid in advance for my friend. I was relieved and disappointed at the same time. I’m not the type to back out of things once planned but I knew I couldn’t do it. Besides, it was a gift to her that I wanted her to have. I did have a feeling though that if I backed out that she would too.
On the day of the massages I emailed her and said that I wouldn’t be able to make it but she was all set to go. I had prepaid with tip so all she had to do was show up. She wrote back and asked what was wrong. Did I want to reschedule for a day we both could do it, etc… I said nothing was wrong and I said I just needed to wait before I treated myself. That’s all. Well, she did cancel. I just felt so bad. Maybe I shouldn’t but this person has helped me out so much that I’ve actually had to tell her that I was starting to feel like I was taking advantage of her. This was something I wanted to do for her. Here it is February and where is her Christmas gift?
Anyways, maybe I’m overreacting. I feel like she has been way more generous to me than I have to her the past couple of years. That’s what I feel guilty about.